I'm a porous mess sometimes
quick to feel anxious, panicked
slow to catch the emotions as they
leak all over you
all over us
drowing out progress
communication
unity
everything I want for us to have
yet everything
I seem to get in the way of.
if only to stay calm, collected
cool, dry
would figuring things out
flow along more seamlessly?
could dealing with uncertainty
be embraced
instead of feared?
how do I go about learning
how to hold it all together?
maybe my first priority
needs to be
to let myself be held
by the One who
will never turn away from me
as my weaknesses, insecurities
pour out.
for there, I am safe
there, I cannot hurt you
or exasperate you.
as trust and acceptance reign
fear and anxiety will be quick to dissolve.
Lord, please
with Your healing love
fill in the holes
fix the leaks
heal the emotions
that I may be a blessing
that I may be centered on You
on what is true, important
and to have clarity
on what is worth getting worked up about
and what is not.